boO!yOu wHoRE!!

wee...!!

2006-02-07T04:28:00.000-08:00

as i heard irene's point of view

as i heard jacq's point of view..

two diff ppl but wit the same mentality...

you're nt up fer it kz..

funny to say that *$ grew me real well...learning hw to let go...adapt to ppl n their standards...achieving fer the black apron even thou itz juz an apron...making u feel confidence wit ur options tt u make day by dae...sumtyms by choosing tt way ppl wld juz see you..ouh so u'r tt barista...but wen you choose another way ppl wld be lyk..hey where's tt barista of your's..but in all the test they put me in i still hav a hard tym in letting ppl go...

letz get it started...
after hearing wat shahidah told me tiz evening...my eyes was watery..heart shattered..but ego shows it all..i dun realli care...but i reallie do...letting her go day by day was hard enuf...but wat if she's forcing herself go free wen im still the one the only one nt letting her go...it was hard...very very hard...at tymz i wld sae myself tt i'm stoopid but i'm only human...i juz hope fer the bez fer her...may tiz happen to her...wat goes ard cumz ard...im nt tt revengeful gal ppl know me as but i juz wan to see her cry fer sum1 tt sh realli cares 4...and she csnt do anything abt it even thou she tried all waes n find all sources fer help...til she bcumz.....juz LIKE ME...trying day by day but gives up in the end..nt bcoz i lost but i lost hope fer her...all those fantasies tt we once shared nw shattered as reality clouds ard us...i juz hope one dae she cld appreciate us...her friends which means nt onlie me....i hope she knows...im still waiting i still luv her n i still do care..

p.s at tymz ppl juz hav to go...adapt adapt adapt

secondly iz choices..

one is a down to earth guy hu can tok almost everything to me,...

and another iz sum1 hu has been waiting fer me lyk fer ages n i've known fer ages...

as irene and jacq says'...

u'r nt ready fer it...

puzzled as i am...but i still do care hu itz gonna be...

lotsa catching up gotta do!

2006-01-03T10:53:00.000-08:00

31 December...
well it was new year eve...wooh everything was still nt done...havent tailored my pantz n lucky sirhan cld rush dwn to peninsular in the morn...thnkz2...i was werking mornin shift btw...kwang3 wit adrian kotek n tiz aatachment partner n filah....it was oryte arz...nt tt bz...but confirm mlm bz....met irene n heman b4 goin off...sempat la kacau2 drg jap...kwang3...but i wish i cld spent the new yr eve wit dem...luv them actually!
well after werk took cab to sirhan's house there n rush bak home...met dna n gt ready fer boogie nyte..radiah cld'nt make it...expected...well the boogie nyte suck!waste my money onlie...

after the boogie nyte spend my new yr eve wit sirhan n usop n sum otha ppl arz...which i cant even remember the name...well it was oryte arzz...there were drinkz but i didnt drink much coz lyk shy arz...well after the pasir ris thing fin we went to east coast...den me n sirhan took 1 cab...we went to eat mc ferst...lol!after tt at abt 5.30 went home...well it was oryte lerr the day!

heY Roy...

2005-12-23T09:14:00.000-08:00

Dec 23...
well ttz today...i woke up quite late...ahakz...!well todae i went wit roy,...tiz cute guy frm m.s...hahakz...well we actually planned to go out laz sat...wen he attatch to my store...it was a gr8 nyte...had dinner at pastamania...actually wanted to watch narnia...but it was fully booked..so we watch tiz show the family stone...nt knowing wat it all abt...but it was oryte thou,...verry farnie!!!heehee...well he kept singing the song stick wit u to me..it was sweet thou!!!ahackz..tiz was a lovely nite fer me!!

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody's breaking up
Throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)
[Chorus:]
Nobody gonna love me better
I must stick with you forever
Nobody gonna take me higher
I must stick with you
You know how to appreciate me
I must stick with you, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way
I must stick with you

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride in our private lives
Ain't nobody getting in between
I want you to know that you're the only one for me (one for me)
And I say
[Chorus]
And now
Ain't nothing else I can need (nothing else I can need)
And now
I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you,We'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby, I'm with you)
Baby, you're with me (Baby, you're with me)
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't you worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you and you know me
And that's why I say
[Chorus x2]

Dec 22
well todae i did opening...wow so tiring kz...i woke up late...but i bath oredi juz tt i tot of gettin a nap..at last overshot!but i reach store at abt 7.50..den irene was the m.o.d..she msg me sae she wil b late coz she forgot to bring her key n she nd to drive bak home...opening wit her was gerek...coz she did pastry n i hate doin pastry...lol!she was farnie la actually!den lily came dwn!!!yey!!!gosh i miz her alot...den irene saw her n can see her face chenged..wen having break sit inside wit irene...lol!!!stoopid xia tokin to her...well gt to know here n there bout her...me shahidah n filah we all stoney2 sia the face...including irene..did'nt get enuf slyp i guess...spastic sia our face...den mike was attatched to my store,...it was hiz laz dae..sad ryte,...he goin army...den me n shahidah planned to go to tam but i forgot to giv bak my micro card so had to come bak to store...den after tt sit2 wit filah n tok2 didnt go home til 9+/..den went home wit mike as well...i reach home n i was lyk half dead...den off to bed!!

Dec 21
well todae did opening wit adrian..den the 2nd and 3rd partners are all attatchies!!!so BORING KZ!!!
well after fin werk...i sit2 ...was so lazie to go home...so ask kakak to send my stuffs..haha!den after tt went to esprit n baught tt nice baju...burn my 70 buckz...den had to stay up till irene come coz gt x'mas party...she came at abt 11...haiz...so tired...she treat me a can of blue colour red bull...lol...i loike..den ate the nasi lemak she baught...power xia!!!den after tt saboh2...juz gt to know jacq's bdae on the 22nd so she oso kena saboh arz...den they threw a pail of ice water on irene...hahakzz...den she chase me...she threw one mango cheese cake on my shirt...dammit!!revengeful xia she!after tt took the whole oreo cheese cake and put on my hair...lusky after the saboh ting she shampoo my hair...hahakzzz....fun argh the party...dunnoe hw xia goin to do opening tml...reach home late lyk hell...confirm tired...

Merry Go Swimming

2005-12-18T13:43:00.000-08:00

HaHaHaHa....
mY fren also wanna improvise his english...
heehee
ok go....!

remember tml new paper cums @12...
thnkz 4 reminding me niwaes...

n remember the cycling thingy too kz!!!

i wanna know...

2005-12-18T11:19:00.000-08:00

hey...juz read his blog...n sumting struck me...am i tt bad?am i tt self-centered?haizzz...well im telling u my side of story...juz to clarify stuff...
we were lyk the bez of friends..the bes of very bez i guess...no..i know...
but tinz drifted as tym passes by...nt knowing wat we hav lost along the way..
we tok lesser n lesser day by day
dun even tok abt meeting...
but lyf has to go on ryte...
u cant wait for rain during droughts
nor can u wait 4 sunshine during the monsoon...
but hw i wish we wld be lyk we used to be..
lyf seem to be so simple...
itz juz abt njoying shopping eating n you always following me hunting fer dee
(heehee remember those daes)
after months of silence shut frm u...
til then we meet again i guess..
we talked gain...
but there's this huge barrier btw us...
n still i cld feel it nw...
further more wit me n my werk..
n u muz be havin a hell out of fun after the probation...
we nw worsen den we used to be...
it feels tt silence frm u is better
rather then seeing u right before me but silence conquers it all...
i hope tt we will always be
the best of everytin
but haizzz....
seems tt the bez of everytin has braught us down..

i love u...i miss you...i'm still waiting...

till we meet again i guess..

wat went wrong?

2005-12-13T12:25:00.000-08:00

fuck fuck fuck...ttz all goin through my mind...nt fuck as in fucking but fuck as in ANGRY!

firstly...im bak wit sirhan and den ended his relationship wit sum gal named aisyah...haiz im so disappointed in myself...but hey we are juz frenz ryte..mayb we juz belong together...but we do see changes in each other..he's nt the him he used to be...lately we've been spending great tym...frm watching harry potter to eating ben and jerry to having the bet thingy n lazly watching saw 2...n nw he's off to bali....hope he has a safe trip...
secondly....failed my first snapshot...n it was me alone behind bar...bloody pantat i scored 87%...failed bcoz i neva describe toffeenut latte perfectly....never upsell pastry n condiment bar was dirrty!!!fuck...n irene gave me that fuck face....fuck sia....
thirdly...i dunnoe whether i am to be happy or wat...im becoming a learning coach come coffee master...lyk huh xia coffee master...describe verona...itz chocolaty???huh??ttz all...sial argh i'll be a complete n total loser k....at least becoming a learning coach is quite oryte...
lazly im damn worried bout my o level....wat iz my future lyk xia...i hope i'll make it big one fine day...

main event...STORE OPENZ!!

2005-09-03T11:36:00.000-07:00

21 august 2005
the day where almoz everytin states wat friends really are....well we woke up frm slyp at abt 6..n i was memekak coz wana see the sunrise...but everybody was lyk huh....esp dna....we mopped the chalet xia!!!kakakka!!!well den afta tt we went to eat mc...den balek chalet again...troz nk tido but gt 2 ppl memekak nk mam...nk mandi nk mandi!!!memekz sakkk...lol....den teman la drg bab malaz seyy nk mandi wen whether mengarot cam tu...den pas tu balek chalet again den mandi...gerek xia the shower head...hahahahaxx...den go n mkn pat lagoon...part ni gerek...i mean balek tym..lol!!!me n dna cant ton but gt sum ppl memekz sak...out of control...huda knape sak ko tk leh ton paderhal da nyek sey..da blg nyek!!!!nyek sak...memekz giler xia...org tkleh ton da memekzzz...troz die ckp pasal duit...sak argh 10 pathetic dollars...sial argh take my die n sae she will pay bak wen she get gaji tk bayar pon...den sumore can sae tt i gave her...wooh!!!paderhal die yg ckp dia akan bayar le dpt gaji...but nvm...malaz sakk nk ungkit tk la cam die...sume siot ungkit....dna binget den ckp argh nk 50 die alek...sak argh auu die tkleh angkat...ANYTIME!!!sial argh plz laaa kkk...abeh drg gadoh laaa...den in btw sempat la kan tolak die...ada ke nk tumbok org...plz dtg lari sepuluh batu..weee!!!wtv laaa kkkkk...den troz nk jadi npcc nye mem sak!!!tkleh angkat..kwn tercontoh...da la org nyek..tk tawu appreciate...(back grd me n dna....i feel lyk i lost everytin wen ur gone...till she stopz...)memekzz sgt sampai malaz nk dgr...)abeh da tu takot shahidah gy main pool ngan kiter....ahahahahah!!!den yarh ttz all 4 tt dae...skit lebih kurang halal ehh dna...tapi 50 no no no sak halal...onlie 4 sum ppl hu tynkz tt kalau she didnt pay her 50 debt afta a long tym itz ok...but her freakin 10 iz more den tt...freak xia...n radiah suar tk dtg pon...malaz to type pon!

22 August 2005
ok todae i woke up sooo the late paderhal ptg oral...kwang3...den meet dna ferst...coz she need to pay aper ntah...den sum ppl bustard sak tk antar...juz soo bustard...tkpe tkpe ingt ehzzz dna!!!hmmphz...i wil remember..!!!den pergi st anthony sorang2 cam belo...den the oral went well la i tynk...ahahahha...afta tt beli bubble tea troz walk dwn memory lane...sak argh remember the good old daes seyyy...i miz skul!!!those sweet huggies...those sweet memories wen we send each otha home..iz juz left in the memories xia..nt even close to hopes n dreams anymore..den gt home laa afta tt...kwang3...troz slack the whole dae...need to re-store my energy..tml werkin l.t at 6.45 xia...haizzzzz.....soooooooooo scaryyyy!!!!

23 August 2005
well todae werk at l.t....gerek giler siaa!!!!the manager was james which is sooo the gerek and baik!!!!then the shift manager!!!a butch which is nt sombong and sooo the ensem...cam tkleh ensem lagi!!!and the partners were all damn gerek!!!it was gerek argh...as it was raining...the place was slack all the way...cam tkleh slack lagi..kwang3...

2005-08-26T08:39:00.000-07:00

on the 20 august it was lyk soo...mepek...the chalet is soo the mepek....bcoz of sum ppl nk bawak alek ayam..ok sum ppl juz dun appreciate..u shld know hu...bdae gal la saper lagi..da laa kwn2 sume crap...mkn joget troz ok...da la bdae cake tkde besar lagi...kalau tawu ttz wat they call bdae cake puas hati kite beli sakkk!!!irritz!irritz kan..!binget seyyy...but juz try to make myself happy laaa...for HER...kate kan bdae gal kan kan kan..tapi melampau seyyy...makin melampau gtu... but nvm...i buy 4 u swatch k...haizzz..wat a fren ehkz...but nvm...ni da bukan once bitten twice shy lagi seyy..da berpuluh puluh kali shy...so forget her k huda...find betta frenz...u hav lotsa ppl ard u...sacrifices are betta for ppl hu acknowledge u...
"Care more than others think wise.
Risk more than others think safe.
Dream more than others think practical
Expect More than Others think POSSIBLE"

o.k nyek...drg sume da balek sume...open up the absolute argh ape lagi...
dna da la tk abez2 danny sini sane...memekzzz sakkkk!!!!lol
ehhh asl aku bogel seyyyy...
ehhh cpt laaaa sume org bgn da sunrise!!!!
go out wit baloon onliee...
why the fuck did tt person look at me...
duh huda ur naked.....!!!!lol

wat had happened abt 2 weekz ago???

2005-08-22T05:24:00.000-07:00

ok lets see...on the 10th i worked at 10 am and fin at 5..learn POS...sungguh memalukan...call out drink salah2...org suroh recall still ckp tall iced latte...abeh leh pekik lak pat tu org paderhal diri sendiri salah...itz iced tall latte...ouhkayyy so the memalukan...cam bulu...bulu pon tk malu gtu mcm..troz call out drink pelan2 jekk...step sweet aergh paderhal da malu nk mam...well the dae went along great...wen i was abt to punch out si filah dtg...hahahkk...da abez aru nk dtg...haizzz...so lost siot w/o her..den afta tt muz go tanjong pagar lagi...ader class...den leela yg ajar...at ferst tk recognize her...troz da lame2..ouhkay...shift manager at p.g...gerek giler sak tt class!!!bab org yg ajar tu gerek nk maMpozz...da la org ckp aku cute???paderhal tk buat paper sia...muka cam beloh2...troz jadi cute...haizzz susah ar gini mcm..hahakkk!!!!N oso i miz my one tree hill!!!so sadddd!!!!my chad michael murray!!!hensem argh die!!!

on the 11th...keje pat J.J...umpe Dna ulu...da tinggal dkt mah...pergi la sesame...da lame seyyy tk umpe diee...hahahkkk...kalau tk mendak gak tgok lauk same jekk..hahahahazzz...den keje sane gerek argh...relekzz giler...lagipon kamal sey learning coach..kamal>>??my gawd ryte...mane tk gerek..den lepas keje sume pergi mkn...yum yum yum...paderhal da kenyang tapi shahidah nk mkn...den mcm tempted gak...so mkn laaa...troz da mkn sume alek laaa ape lagi kannn...hahakkk..tml werk again..tulang da cam nk roboh siot!!!

on the 12th went to o.j to take our typhord jab nye receipt...siak xia itu receptionist..."do u tynk itz fair for us to dig in ur file??"sial ar dig je la...fair tk fair tetap ko cam siak...muka da la mintak kene tampar...siak ar nyonya jual sayur kat pasar aku pon muka lagi senono sak!peragai pon tk sesial ko!ok fine the receptionist iz juz sooo action!so we went to the clinic there n gt our receipt but muz pay argh dunnoe hw much..pader hal setakat tulis nama n i/c num kiter pon kene bayar...cam siak kannn...irritating!den we went to our last class!yey!!!we were late and so was shereen...hahakk..si royston sampai nk cancel seyy tu class...but we were juz in tym..dia uat kan iced caramel machiato!!!yey!!!nw ttz my fav drink in *bux...heehee...the class was oryte laaa....but it was quite sad seyyy sume da tk umpe lagi...haizzzzz...da tkleh tgk mie agy...heeheee....den afta the class...i was lyk kacau2 shereen wit habib!!!hahahaha...bab dektu argh nk sgt num habib...die ckp sal sul paderhal paderhal seyyy....ingt org tk tawu...heehee...den after the class dna amek..yey!!!ader teman nari alek sesame!!!ahahhahah...so pathetic ryte...

on the 13th werk at pg...my gawd org the bnyk seyyy!!!!furthermore i was werkin at the bar...da la kene bbual ngan org2 bdh tu...sak ar satu kali nie bbual2 steam susu troz smpi 200 f n it was lyk oozing out of the jug...n e cust was lyk...hey ur water...itz milk...ok memalukan...den lagi satu org nie sae i was a chinese la hidung lawah la...mampozzz...juz make me kembang..hahakk...ok tt dae org bnyk nk mam...den kene uat closing lak tu...haizzz troz mlm amin amek wit all my cuzz inside...weeee!!!Kiter gi mkn den main bowling sume....troz ton pat chalet...yey!!!yey yey pon sok keje...hahahahakkk!!

on the 14th was the laz dae for our in store training...YEY!!!!actually it was at p.s but tmpt tu tk busy sgt so kene la gi j.j....abeh training pon abez cpt....troz dudok2 argh ngan yani sume...den yani sae shes nt straight!!!my gawd ryte!!!i tot shes straight sia!!!she hav a gal look!!!n she plays netball...no i mean shes a netball coach ok..!ouhkayy tt was shocking...den ppl at p.s tot tt me n shahidah were together..???my gawd ryte...aper nieeee....we stayed till closing,....den haikal dtg....troz dia bbual ngan lily argh...den b4 goin home kiter mkn...sak argh tu mee tkleh pedas lagi ke???belo sia the pedas...tml take bar cert!!!!scaryyy!!!

on the 15 took bar test at j.j...haizzz....it was lyk soo the kekok...uat benda sume nye salah2...ok fail besok retest....so yarhhh....den afta tt g mkn ljs ngan shahid...hahahkk...pat tm den beli sluar pat fox troz alekk./...

on the 16th went to j.j again to take e retest...lily ckp kul 10 smpi jj...so i woke up at 8...da mandi sume...dlm 8.30 lily msg ckp tukar tym at 12...tkpe happy moment gile so went bak to slyp...den sampai at 12 troz dia suroh g mkn dulu...step concern tapi paderhal die lmbt...hahahakkk!!!so mkn pat mas ayu...yum yum sak nasi campur die....kekekeke...troz uat the test,,...den at abt 4++ gtu Dna dtg...den afta e bar test dudok2 dgn lily n joe...bbual sal butch...ahahhahaha!!!kekek sak joe...troz alek ngan Dna...den gy umah Dna jap bab tk tahan nk kencing siol....kalau tk terkencing pat sluar...kekeeke...

oN the 17th keje pat EP....nasib baik si shereen tu ader...i werk wit two guyz...oryte laaa drg....gerek ar keje...am i tt cute ...bab si satu ni argh ckp ehh u so cute argh...uat keje pon cute???nani xia??i was lyk so the nani...tk pernah2 dlm my hidop i blush..he said i was blushing...pat tu tipu argh....kakakaka...den abez bout 11.30 gtu..den si laki2 tu nk antar me wit hiz motor...but i promise shereen i wld go bak wit her...so yarh...den naik mrt gi tam pikir kan nak naik 65...troz bus da tkde...wooh!!!!!!den i took 18 n stop pat skul troz nk naik 228...but den my eZ link da abez den syiling pon tkde...troz jln kaki sia alek umah...kaki cam nk roboh!!!!

on the 18th keje pat p.s kul 11...i was lyk so glad to see yani xia wen i step in werk...den see lily lagy happy!!kakaka...kalau tk abez argh lost...keje e whole dae pat POS...troz at 2 gtu yani alek den fila dtg...troz keje oryte...den fila ask me to steam milk den i was blur2 coz demam mah...den dia cam pekik gtu argh...den i was lyk blur2 troz buat argh...den she thought i was lyk merajok...die ckp huda jgn majok laaa....tk suker sey org2 sensitive...mampozz...den i was lyk huh ape seyy...aku tk pape laa...aku nga sakit...troz die orgh...den kul 6 gtu alek...sampai umah troz ngok one tree hill ...den tido...

on the 19th gi umpe si shahidah ulu bab die nk gy ngok sluar ke ape ntah laaa...den gi bank kemot pat bedok gi deposit duit...troz gi jurong coz y'dae i drop my creative troz rosak...den eka kol..irritz sak marah2...ouhkay..hahak...den umpe nad pat bugis gi li decorations untok chalet....den ngok2 baju..tot of buying tiz dress...but tkpe larrr...hahahkkk...troz alek...trans lagu to my creative...plan wit shahida bout tml...den tdo...sok keje kul 8 argh...penat...tulang roboh...im sick....

im soooooo tired...shagged...

2005-08-09T01:52:00.000-07:00

ok letz start wit 4 august..itz been sum tym since i blogged actually...so tired...heehee..ok ok letz get it goin..actually 4 august...i didnt go anywhere..hahakzz...i tynk i cldnt reALLY REMEMBER..hahakzz...
k k start wit 5 august laa..i was on my wae to town...takin 65..den got one belo gal...i met in the bus...she was supposed to stop at my bustop and lyk go home..but she lyk ermmm teman me to town...hahahkzz!!so good ryte!!!ok itz DNA the belo la actuali...ok den went to town coz gt my stoopid sb class...den muz meet lily earlier coz i dunnoe y larh actuali...den we went to the clas...it was lyk so boring...i was lyk half asleep but cant sleep xia..because the form tiz small square ard the talker...and yarh all eye on us...soo borin..den gt tiz cute guy hiz name was Mi...soo cute xia....hahahahkzzz...like suffy abit la the way he dress and stuff...ermzzzz....okie gt to know more peepz dere...ok then go home coz the next dae muz wake up morning2 xia....
hmmmzzz on 6 august was my first in store training...i was lyk damn shy wen i stepped in paragon...it was lyk so memalukan la actually...den gt introduced to my learning coach...she was cool but i was darn quiet..malu sak!!!and her face was like my anak sedara which i really hate u know!!but she was oryte!!cool!!after the in store training which was so tiring i gt to know.."hey im quite a popular gal back in oj.."hahhakzzz...coz almost everybody know me by ex-oj...hahahkzzz...den afta training met Dna and shahid!!!kakaka...troz jln2 pat twn jap...den so mendak sakkk..troz balek...tido sia kul 8 gitu...too tired too furious...haizzz
den comes 7 aug...well i was actuali soo tired ...but die2 muz go werk...so yarh...went to werk as usual/..i tot diff learning coach xia...but luckily same....hahahahah!!!so good!!ermzz den at werk gt tiz gal sae im a dancer...ermzzzz???hahahha...k laaa den afta werk went to o.b to see jujul actuali..skali si suffy keje..den he was lyk wanting to tok to me n stuff...dunnoe y...den wen we were goin seperate waes..he told me tt we shld go out sumdaE!!!!and ask me to call him...ermmzz..den afta tt see radiah modelling or wateva stuffat clarke quay....at last titi ke titiu...hahakk...ermmzz den go home!!!chalet on 20 iz confirmed!!!!WEEEEEEE@@@!!!!
ok on 8 august iwas lyk so shocked..my learning was lyk not supposed to werk but she come to lyk coach me...so sweet of her ryte...kakakak!!!!ok i wil treat her larr one day...I WILL!kakakka...den afta in store training gt class training sumore...soooo tired siow!!!den went home tok to Dna bout chalet den sleep...zzzzzzZZZZzzzz

booM!!!

2005-08-03T10:41:00.000-07:00

well okie lotsa storie to tell..

lets start wit ermm 2nd august...okieeee...i went for interview at starbucks wit shahidah...at p.s...den mit ekan nad n dna at tam...we were late coz we went to check for the price of absolut vodka...tk dpt absolut vanilla pon tkpe la...janji bukan malibu...bluek!!!hahakzzzz...well the interview was ok and the manager will get bak to us on wed...so yarh...gt a tuition starting tiz fri...and im lyk nt free coz if i were supposed to start training it wld be tiz fri...suckz ryteee...hahahahkzzz...well then meet dem at tam..we were late...den eka was lyk nyek nyek nyek..letz all tampal tape at her mouth..hahakkk!!!den we went to eat at ljs...cam da lame sey tk mkn...i was tempted to eat but force myself nt too!!!muz control man!!hahakkk!!!den dna muz go to werk..as usual so action..hahakk..den antar die gi int ternmpk "hi darling!"..tiz fat butch which totally look lyk a gal n sooo nt the hensem...hahahhakkk!!!kekek sakkk!!!she knew we were lyk tokin bout her...i mean him tk jadi...lain la kalo dee...mata pandang pon sweet jekk...hahak!!den troz dudok argh ngan eka n shahidah...den eka lyk cite2 sume...wooh y dun u accept my love...hahahha!!!both so hypocrite..satu ckp dektu mepek...satu agy ckp he's my num 2 enemy...gemini are big fuckerz!!hahahkk!!!ok cldnt care less nanti org ckp kite jealous lakkk...sorie i gt my ahem to tynk abt...sorie jgn marah tarak mase nk pikir sal org lain nye hal!!hahahahha...den went home...kamal msg2...ckp wana blanje me n dna n haikal mkn nydc!!!yes argh tawu la ko kamal on mon..ketok mezti ketok nyer!!!hahahahha!!juz kiddin im nt tt sort la!!

den todae wake up den study...still sick....haizzz...den the manager call sae to come for first impression at paragon todae...malu sakk!!but actuali it was notin at all...den the manager sae im the shy2 type...ermmzzz...hahahzzz...of coz laa tkkan ferst dae troz nk foshizle my nizle kan bbual ngan org sume...ehhh melampau nanti org ckp!!!ok den gt to go for the training ting...harap2 kene dtg pagi2 soo tk laa ramai org kannn...dAn memalukan hidop I!!!hahakk...after the first imp thing went to eat at bk lt...tot suffy nt werkin but actuali he is...ouhhhh!!!!so ermmmmmmmmmmm!!!ok....hahahah...den went over and tok2 fer abt 1 hr or so...yipee!!!abeh dna da jadi my matair canne???hahakkzz...den shahidah nie argh mkn ice cream cam org belo sakk...da beli abeh buang siow ryte!!abeh menitis nitis sane sini..memalukan argh cam gini...hahahahkk...troz alek tk 65...da la ramai MKP bdh nk mam...driver bukak air tkleh kuat lagi...kalau leh bus tu da bau cam bangkai baru die nk kuat kan air con...nasib baik da kat aljunied sane ni MKP2 sume da turon!!!baru rase pening argh!!!troz fresh sakk!!!den teman Dna gi trans duit to eka...pathetic sia mentang2 da tinggal dekat..titi ke titiu sakkk...ahahhaha!!!troz alekkk!!!yes argh sok main basikal pagi2..hahahah!!!tengok laa si bulu tu leh ke tk angun pagi..heehee!!N MAKE SURE SOK EKA GY BOOK CHALET>>KALAU TK TAWU LA DIE...!IRRITZ SAK!!

out of heree..so happie!!!!!but scared xia for tiz sat store training!!

seVen..at eka's chalet!!

2005-07-30T09:42:00.000-07:00

all but memories..

she kept me thinking..promises

2005-07-30T09:07:00.000-07:00

well well well...radiah lyk called todae and yest..hahakzzz...ermzz lyk wat was tt ryte,...hmphzz juz glad to hear her voice!!and yarh 20 august iz gonna be a bomb!!lurves it...well well well..erm and todae suffy called(supposed to be happy as owaes) but i was like ermmzzz all the wae...itz owaes me hu ask him tinz..but todae it was like i reply him..."i know"..."erm ok"..hahakzzz...juz gt no mood larhz ok...i dunoe wat he reali wants larh okie frm me...sorie malaz nk layan...gettin tution to help me cope...hahahah!!!im so happie finally can get help...den eka ask me to accompany her wait for ermmm...but sori so malas...coz it was rainin and all...no mood mah to go out...well tiz song reali makes me happie...wanna noe onort wat song..k la k la i let u know k k k ...hahahkkk...i sing for u can...niwae gt bad soar throat...so sian my voice lyk tiz...zat call dgr pon kekek kan...hahahk...dun care..hu nd boyfriends ryte...actuali im a liar...so yarh if i lie ...ermmm sorie...mayb nw dun need guyz la...dey sooo irritating..neva pick up phone..ring me up till my phone batt can die xia...siow ryte...well anywae those are guyz hu are realli pathetic..hahahaha...anyone out there suffering frm tiz prob..?dun worry ur nt the onlie one...well ok bak to the song..let me sing nw... (*clears throat)

PromiseMatchbook Romance(Stories And Alibis)

what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you'll never let me go

and the stars aren't out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can't replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy

i never thought i'd be the one to say
please don't, please don't leave me

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy...

(easy, easy, easy...)

take my hand and never let me go,
take my hand and never let me go,
promise me...you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
you'll never let go
make this last forever

i feel like i lost everything when you're gone
left remembering what it's like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy
you're not making this easy

so fall asleep tonight,
cuz' that brings me closer to you

can onnort?hahakzzzwell erm okie tiz iz all i gotta sae..tml muz wake up at 8..go biking wit Zat..so muz go to lala land (cant believe i stil use tt word) now...nyte2!

heLP!!!!

2005-07-29T10:10:00.000-07:00

im nt lying to myself tt i wana go to poly..but y muz ppl keep doubting me...i know wat i wan...i wana study but i cant...i dunoe where to start..i wan help but i never seem to get it...though i flip the pages of tt math bk..my mind juz went kaboom! coz i realli dunoe wat to do..itz nt tt i dun wana do it itz tt i cant...i juz hope sumdae they cld be in my shoes...im scared...seriously the first tym in lyf i eva said tt im scared..i reali am lost..plz god plz god make it rain so they wil neve see the tears tonite...im scared...!i feel lyk i've lost everytin if i were to fail tiz tym round...i totally am...i dun even care bout tt fren ive owaes wanted to b wit me in everytin i do though ttz wat she promised n i wil owaes remember...but i feel tt DINAH iz the one i wil ever need here and then...dinah if u ever read tiz..i juz wana tell u tt im reali scared..though u see me alwaz happy ard u..i tynk u wil see the real lost gal wen im drunk or wen im reali at my witz end lyk ryte nw..i juz wana sae tt even though i hav 6 picz of u (hahakz) u are the moz imp gal fren in my lyf,...THankz 4 bein my everytin though i realize it too late...i juz wana tell u tt u are my real fren..the one huz alwaz ryte in font of my eyes but i juz wanted sum1 else takin ur shoes..i wun make a promise to u but i know tt i wil alwaz be there for u...even if it was bcoz u wana take a certificate...but i wil make tym fer it...coz i reali owe u lotzzz...i dun expect bezfrens onlie but a real fren iz all im askin for...i love u!Thankz!

happiE meal?

2005-07-15T11:59:00.000-07:00

well2 eka bdae was a blast..hahahakzzz..played laughing gas till can die..den dunnoe la hu squash my freakin ***** until lyk wana burst it xia..actuali i know hu it is but nvm..hahahkzz..den i was lyk goin im ok..ok2!den radiah was lyk *duk* my head,...den as usual i was so so mad..den i dunoe wat the hell i shouted..den sori2 syg2..ok....da baik..hahaha it was so fun..n i skipped my meals 4 2 daes..den got gastric pain..hafta stay home for sum daes...yey!!tml mit Dna..hahahkzzz..well ttz all i hafta update..so lazy..kakakakak

2005-07-05T03:01:00.000-07:00

hEy...well i had been squeezeing all my brain cells on o level's..haizz it sux u know doin it twice..juz suck..kakakaka..well had no other choice..wat if i fail??my gawd i would be damn sad i tell you..all my effortzzzz...as if...boo u whore...akakakka..ermzz...ok ok..well actually tiz past few daes is so shack...i kept waking up very late..i dunoe why...perhapz i studied in the morning..haizzz..dunoe la yy..well i had benn getting i tynk millionz or uncountable prank callz..not as if it realli is prank call...but the caller would nt hung up till i sae hello/...and if i didnt he wld call again...so to satisfy her/him i wld juz sae hello n hung up...den ttz all for todae...den the next dae it wld b the same again...although i am irritated i juz refuse to sae **ck o*f or *8*** 8**...well all those werdz..coz im lyk GOING to change my number soON i tell you.!!!so scram!!

itZ beEn a LonG tyM!

2005-06-16T02:58:00.000-07:00

ok...nice meetin again...itz been a long tym...reallie...hmmph let me see..refresh memory plzz....ok i can onlie remember till we went to nite safari...too much too furious to mention...!!!ahahahha!!!ok b4 we went dere...guess wat...me n dna like fought wit shahidah...ok b4 tt i fought wit shahidah!!ok we went to town as usual go SHOPPING...!!b4 goin shopping...shahidah deleted eka picz in her hp n eka too binget too furious...den my bag...my goodness gracious new bag kena ink!!!!waT wAS THAT!!!!!!!eeeeeee.....felt like cryin...ok den we proceed to twn...den happy2 n stuff,...wen we were on our wae to somerset MRT in front of 7eleven..i accidently steped on shahidahs roxy slippers...not that i note of wat i juz had done...she juz suddenly pinched my arms dere,,,..FREAKIN painful...ok den i wanted to get bak at her...she said i was too much coz i did nt let any1 pinch me....goodness gracious me wat was tt blue black SHE EKA N DNA put on me!!!so iRRITATIN!!!then she spread2 the stuff to all the others N left me n Dna JUz basking in te ambience!!!okie...den we like so called fite...i tynk they thought we were fighting but me n Dna do our stuff..FREAKIN SICK OF FIGHTING LARH OKKKK!!!!!

okie den few daes later (still fightin for ur info) me n dna wanted to go play pool...but we went out quite late left us wit a few mins to play...so we decided to eat swensens at parkway parade...den saw eka face...lyk tellin me wat the hell are u doin here..ignore plzz....ahahahha...den she ask me eh are u mad at me...den i was like since when???coz shahidah lyk told her wat shit i dunnoe...juz keep tokin bout me larh okie...selfish xia...tt was hw me n eka gt betta....

okie 2 daes later as we planned 2 WEEKZ b4 to go to nite safari!!guess wat on the eve of tt special dae....shahidah like bubble me N Dna...sae she gt no money!!!!!den wat bout tellin us shes goin to safe money by nt spending much during the weekdaes...my GAWD!!!!!!n the bez tin was tt shes goin out wit din as she says everytins free...wat was tt man??!!!so much 4 tellin her 1 week in advance...ok itz lyk betta nt askin her out at all ryte???my gawd the deception...den the laz option was either to juz go wit Dna or try our luck wit radiah...N radiah agreed......weeee!!!yipeeeeeee!!!!!i guess shahidah cant go was for the betta 4 us...NOOO FIGHTS....!!!!ok the dae was so fun i tell u...iN The JUngle!!!den wat bout babiruse!!!ahahahahahah,....lol dna??wakakakkakak!!

ookieee...den like my fite wit shahidah juz worsen larh okieeee....i ask her for my roller blade...coz i juz tot the laz person was her...den she said noo....den lyk Dna msg her wat shyt...n she reply sheila On 7 jln troz xia.....wakakakakkakak!!!!

the next dae i went to eat dinner wit dna den haikal called me he say tt yest he msg shahidah 4 his cD bak den dunnoe wat the hell she sae my roller blade jln trozzz....juz tell the whole werld sia!!!pe binget!!!den i msg her she sae itz coincedence...weeeeeee........sebenarnye org tk bleh amek benda die bALEK!!!binget sey cam nk ketok kepala die ngan keyboard..juz assume!!!my gawd..!!!okie bought dirty dancing DVD...bring bak memories sia ngan usop..ahahahah!!!

okie i knew tt me n eka n dna had been goin out alot recently...eating and stuff!!!den one tym we eat at the eastm coast lagoon....all the seafood!!!the lala n siput n all laaa was superb!!but dna action seyy tk lapar la niee laaa...bulu laaa.aakakakakka!!!

k den on the 14 which is recently ttz y i remember the date...went to buy Dna uni...at ite simei///....den after tt went to eat at seoul garden...the bet so eka muz blanje me...ahahahahah!!yumyumyum sia..den afta den went to play arcade...tt butch nt as awesome as i tot..ahahahah!!!so we played daytona n the puck tin..ok!

nani>??

2004-10-28T09:19:00.000-07:00

waT juZ hapPenEd?

eat eat eat!!!!

2004-10-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

well 2dae actually intended to go to bgss to mit that old bi**h..nw den she's leaving..my gawd!too late too furious!*sighz*skul wld be so0o0o peaceful w/o her yarr..haha..but all of us overslept so everytin went down the drain..hmmph..at abt 5.30 went out of house and meet siRHAn coz promised him to break fast together..well we were late!!*sobz*we booked table for two at magic wok..but darn reach late and there's no table left!!darn it!!our dinner!!!haizzz..so we hurried to sakura..luckily gt place...ahahahahzz!!!we ate and ate and ate..and didnt finish all the dishes..heeheehee..we arent big eater..so then we proceed to town..hahazz..talk and talk and sit and talk..well gt alot to tok..heeheeheez..den we went to buy cornetto ice cream..hahahzzzden had our drink...den we sat and tok and tok and tok moorree!!!!den we proceed home!!!hahaha!!wat a gweat nyte out!!!reach home at abt 11+++..and yarr alot of funny funny tinz happened wenever im ard him!so it was a realli great nyte..funz aside nw!i gotta study study at nyte!!hehehe..okie denn outz!!!

happie bdae dear!

2004-10-25T23:27:00.000-07:00

okiezz..todae wake up quite early..to me laa,..as yesterdae slept at wat tym seyy..well gt up the gt ready to mit my dearest..but then he cancelled it at the very laz minute coz sumtin happened and stuff so he told me to mit him at nite..gee..fun fun fun..suppossed to break fast wit sirhan but cancelled it too coz my mum dun allow me too...wat the hell sey!!!!hmmphh so so so so mad sakz!!at abt 7.27pm went out of my house buy for him b'dae cake den mit him,..weeee!!!hehehe so long neva mit him,,...haizzz miz him so0o0o0o muacchh!!muack muack!!spent the nyte wit him..heeheeheeh...to me it was fun though it was simple..den my frenz came over and at abt 10+++ we made our wae home!!!reach home watch america's top model!it was cool!!hahahah!!den tok to eka till dunnoe wat tym and den slyp..hehehezzz..luv him muachh!!!wat a nyte!

2004-10-24T08:19:00.000-07:00

ermm im sooo freaking pissed....am i?

BoRed!!!!!!!

2004-10-24T01:16:00.000-07:00

oKiee first up wake up darn late..at abt 2+++pm..my gawd..coz tok to sum1 till dunnoe wat tym the nite b4...haizzz...well wake up check my hp gt lyk two messages..one frm sirhan n another is frm radiah..n guess wat radiah lyk got mad at me abt me nt tellin her stuff..okie such a great mornin to start up wit my dae..so had to lyk u know try n reason out wit her for sumtym den she was okie..den i went bak to lala land till abt 4+...den i called nadiah and ask her for some suggestions on where to go tml..den my mum was lyk nag nag!!ask to bath..so drag myself to toilet and bath..lyk duh fasting so weak..den watch gilmore galz at 6 den at 6.52 break fast!!yipee!!chump chump all the food!!!yummie!!!yesh gt energy oredi!!!switch on my com and did tiz blog...hahaha..coz so bored gt nutin to do..denn lyk juz laze ard and fateha msg me??!!my gawd i was lyk soooooooo shocked!!well itz gr8 to hear frm her after a long tym!!miz her yarr!!denn lyk chat wit Dna n she saw tiz stoopid dragonfly in her house and she was running around the house wit her arms wide openmy fwenz mad,..n eka at first was chattin fine wit me n da moment my clock strikes 12.30 she bcome bonkers!!she keep saying she luvs me..is she a lesbian!!and keep typing some lovey dovey songz fer me!!all my frenz have gone mad..n im so tired of typing..but yarh juz wana tell bout my cwazzie frenz..they turn bonkerz juz as the clock strikes 12 and stop till late 1..so yarh!!!n nw at 1.16 am sirhan called me and wat tym am i supposed to slyp!!!okie laa ttz all!!